Addiction

Have you ever sat and thought of all the different addictions one could have? The world is full of things that we could become addicted to. Some may be the easy things such as chocolate or TV or Candy Crush. But then there are things that people seem to think they have to justify the addiction and deny that they have an addiction, of course, first that comes to mind is alcohol. An alcoholic will say they aren't addicted to drinking and can stop whenever they want but choose not to. My thoughts are about 'chat'. How going into a chatroom, you go in with expectations of fun and laughs but then once that's gone, why go in? It becomes almost like an addiction....like a need? What for? To see that you aren't so bad off as you thought you were? Or is it that you need to know what is going on when really you dont? You can stop whenever you want....yet, there you are, in there again like you've been sucked in and is there something wonderful and funny going on? No. Just some schmuck acting like he's hot stuff to the ladies when in fact he's nothing, and the ladies acting like he's wonderful Cuz he gives them attention. This isn't a complaining post, just observation. Anything in the world, you can be addicted to. Why be addicted to something so stupid? If it's not that initial fun and laughs to pass time, then why bother? Is that how all addictions seem to tend to be after awhile? Can an addiction be so easily broken? Or do we find something to take its place to be addicted to? Maybe a positive addiction but then, it'd still be an addiction that you may have to eventually break. It's like a never ending cycle! I think will have to mix it up with a negative and positive addictions to even yourself up. Lol  So I had a bit of this discussion with my co-worker and he brings up a few items about this. One could say that even an addiction could end up being almost like an obsession compulsion. We discussed that maybe one could be addicted to Candy Crush but also addicted to the electronic device that it is played on. So, let's say, you run out of lives on Candy Crush...do you put that device away and move on or do you find something else on that device to ease the tense of not being able to play the game but find another to take it's place? So it could be addiction of the game or the device or just games in general. It's a world of varieties to it! Too many variables for me to even phantom to think too much about. 

Tis the season....

No, not THAT season! Tis the fall season! I feel like cleaning normally goes spring cleaning and fall cleaning. Those big cleaning times where you feel motivated to get things OUT. So today, here at work, as I sit alone while the boss is having family day at a water park and the day is creeping by with barely to do, I decided to try to organize a few things. My desk area is clean, organized, done. I went to the other areas and tried to organize. I can only do so much lol Since I'm not sure where to put things so that we/she knows where they are at another time lol I'll leave the rest for her to do. Now if I could just push myself to have this motivation at home! No no, don't get me wrong, I clean but it just seems to take so much longer and so much more to do! Other people will say that that's why I have kids, to have them do it. Which is true to a point. They can do most but if I want it done the way I want it done, then I will have to do it lol Not that I'm a perfectionist and normally I can handle how they do it(for awhile). 

Summer wants to end in a BAM! It's been hot and humid. It's what it should have been most of the summer but I think summer was confused with itself. It wanted to be autumn and now has remembered what it really is and back to that summer weather! It can be this for awhile for me! The longer it's confused, the longer we put off winter and snow! yeahhhhh!

School starts in...3 days, 16 hours, 30 minutes. But, really, who's counting? lol This was the first summer that I was the working mother instead of home with the boys. It was different, for sure. Boys didn't get to do a lot of things, unfortunately. But, they seem happy to be going back to school! I'll be happy that I won't be getting texts all day long from them! lol I'll share texts from them from the other day:

Z(16 yr old): there's a wasp in the house

Me: then kill it

Z: we might have a wasp problem, i think it got in thru a vent

Me: ok, i doubt it, just kill it

Z: the dog tried to eat it i think he might have gotten stung

Me: Why didn't you just get the fly swatter and kill it before he got it?

Z: cuz

me: well keep an eye on him, check his face if it's swollen

Z: you may have to take him to the vet

me: is his face swollen or seem to be in pain?

Z: no, but if he did, im saying

me: grr, just watch him and kill the wasp!

Z: (sent a pic of the wasp on the floor)

me: if its dead, i dont need a pic of it

z: i just flushed it

lmao 

A few hours later:

C(the 13 yr old): (sent a pic) mom, i fell and hurt my knee 

me: clean it up and put bandaid on it then

c: it hurts to walk

me:then don't walk

c: what should i do?

me: put ice on it and lay on the couch

.....

C: do we have crutches?

Me: lol No

C : it hurts, i can barely walk do we have somethin like crutches?

Me: Nope

C: do we have a cane?

Me: nope

C: what can i use to walk then?

Me: your 2 legs

C : but it hurts to walk

Me: then. lay. down. dont. walk.

C : fine

Oh, yes, my boys keep me laughing. I can not wait for school to start!!

Smile

Have you ever had that person that immediately makes you smile? Where you feel like whatever was wrong is suddenly gone, with just that one smile. I suppose it could be more than a person. It could be a song, an indulgence of a naughty food. But today, for me, it was that one person. Total cheesy grin at that "Hey!" 

As I sit and think, I know I get that smile out of nowhere when I listen to my kids. Sometimes the silly things I overhear them say. (As I sit here and overhear my almost 13 yr old singing in the shower).

Oh! What about that first chocolate chip cookie warm out of the oven!? HEAVEN! The warmth, gooey, mmm chocolatey goodness that you see it and your eyes sparkle and you smile because you know THAT one is for you you YOU! (I've just made myself hungry for fresh baked chocolate chip cookies, darnit!)

Today, another smile, a couple came into work. They moved here recently from Georgia. They were older(66 and 70) and the lady just talked and was telling me more detail than I needed to know as her husband looked around the office then finally sat and nodded and let her talk. It made me smile. She was just so happy to share about their house and why they moved and then both of them telling me about this horrible flood they had in Georgia that they lost their house to. (I didn't know there was a flood in Georgia...it was in 2009). 

For a Monday, I discovered I had more things to smile about than I had thought. We all need that one thing to smile about. We need to find that one thing, it can come when we least expect it, it can come from somewhere we never thought. But, I don't want to rely on another person for my happiness...today, a person was the one that made me have the best smile. Maybe we all need to try to make someone smile. We don't have to depend on others to do it, WE can try to make someone with a bad day finally smile. Now, for me, I'd be all silly. Probably start singing "I'm a Love Machine, uh huh..." because THAT song makes me smile every time! Oh, another one, "Funkytown" only because I sing it very silly with different voices. I see now why my 16 yr old is afraid I'll embarrass him. I'd not do it to embarrass him, at least not intentionally lol Now that I think about it, maybe that's why he doesn't like going grocery shopping with me as I sing along to the music playing on the overhead speakers. Hmm. My other son asked me the other day why they play music in the store lol I told him so to keep the customers entertained, as I hummed along to a song that I didn't know the words to and hoped that no one in the aisle could hear me. 

A Beginning and End

I'm starting off a blog/journal. I haven't done one on the computer in some time now. Journaling isn't new to me though. I've had journals since I was in grade school. Of course, back then I called it a diary! Just thinking of that takes me back! The little diary with a little lock and key so that no one could read it. Lol I guess it's only fitting that I'm thinking about to school days as it's the end of the summer. One month until my kids start school (not that I'm counting down the days or anything!).
Do you remember when you went to school and that last month of summer you wanted to last forever!? I remember back to when I was in 5th grade. We lived in this big house at the end of the cul-de-sac, the neighbor kids and I would stay out playing til way past dark. We'd play hide and seek or flashlight tag! Pretending to hide in plain sight but it was too dark for others to see. Hiding with the neighbor boy and stealing a kiss.(Yes, that was bad!). Oh those were the days! Where responsibilities flew out the window! I sometimes wish I was that young again.
Now, I'm the mother. The one that has the responsibilities. The one that still wants my kids to be young and have the fun of the youth. A mother of a 16 yr old boy and an almost (in 10 days) 13 yr old boy. The youth is starting to slip away. I'll be writing about them a lot.
So this is a beginning of a year and the end of the summer. What summer? I ask! It's been a cool summer. We had maybe 2 weeks of solid hot weather. Also since this is my first summer of working, it hasn't felt like summer to me except for the fact my kids are home, texting me when they need/want something.

So August. What good things happen in August? It's hard to think of something good in August! One can say that it's the beginning of autumn. I feel autumn started a week or so ago with this cool weather.

A Sunday. Beginning of the week. End of the weekend. It's almost been a year since I started my job. My first official job in 14 years. It's not as happy as that first day but I should be happy that I have that job. That's the thought to keep having. And I'm there helping people, when needed.

So my first post on the blog. Not awesome but it'll do for the first one! I'll have to ponder about other posts.